Yesterday I wrote a blogentry in my fav-board and now I want to post it here, but in English xD It's just some weird things out of my head xD
First something about my mood. I dunno if you know how it feels when you are in love with someody. It doesn't matters ut maybe you can undrestand me a little better if you know.
And no, I'm not in love (I think...)
If anyone was really in love with someone, you may know the feeling. You're happy and you want to sing and dance all the time. You don't have to sleep or to eat. You just feel great. And that's the way I feel in the moment. I'm just happy, without a reaon.
I've the best friends in the world, a supercute dog and anyway, I'm happy!
I'm in love with my life
I think it's because i realized how ungfair the world is.
There are little children, only 3, 4 years old and they've cancer. There are kids which are not allowed to go to school because they haven't enough money. There are kids without parents, there are so many ill people which haven't enough money for medicine and must die. There is so much pain in this world and I had thought that my life is unfair to me. No, it isn't! I've got enough money, I've got a mother who loves me, a brother who supports me, friends that accept me like I am.
So, is there anything unfair? Only because my father doesn't care of me? That's no reason. My life is great!
Something bothres me. Some people say that the people I chat with are no real friends. But why? They are so important to me! I love them so much! I can talk to them about everything.They care about me and so I do. I laugh with them, I cry with them, I feel happy if they are. Waht's he difference between them and the people I meet vis-a-vis? Only the distance. I hink that isn't a reason why they can't be real friends.
Lara? Kiwii? Akibi? Ina? Monti? Wuffi? All the other people form the board? I love love love you soooooo~ much! You are all very important to me! (Sorry, but I must say that x3)
Music makes me feel alive.
That's my slogan. I love music. And everything I do goes along with music. Sometimes I think the music is some kind of basic need for me xD
Music is creativity you can hear and that's great. I'm so sad that I'm dependent to people which make music, because I can't =S
If I hear music, my mind starts to paint pictures. Nearly every song I hear has it's own pic-thing xD The most scribbles I sketch are mirrors of the pics in my head, but in the most cases they look so creepy on the paper =S I wish I could photograph my mind-pix xD Believe me, in my mind they look great xD
I dunno if that's something special that I can see something like that, but I think it's great, its a kind of inspiration for me =3
Hm, maybe you know that: You see a person or even alk to him/her only a few, but this person is still in your mind, even after some hours. I sometimes have that, I can only think about thatperson. In the most cases they are somehow special.
So, and now to my problem. There is someone who doesn't want to go out of my mind >.< It's stronger than normaly. I must think about him sooo~ much, but I've only talked to him a few times, but... I don't know, there is something, that is connecting us, okay, that's how I feel. But I don't think that's love. I can't imagine that I fall in love with someone I don't even know. That's so confusing >.<' I don't want to think about him anymore! I don't want to feel so strange if I talk to him! Damn, I hate it. First, he's older than me and... dunno, but I think that he doesn't like me because I'm younger (okay, that's what I think, but... I think he likes me, but only as a friend).
So, and if I get a bad break, my mother and I move in the city where he lives and thant it could be that we're in the same school. I don't want to see him every day! Pweh, this thing makes me go crazy, believe me! x.x
So, that's all,
Thanks that you read the stuff (if you read it xD)